It has been a very very long time since i last blogged.

I cudnt sleep tonite... it's 3am right now, on a Monday morning. Monday... just feels like skipping it and all the other days in the week and go straight back to Saturday again... i guess that will never happen.

Listening to Nirvana's unplugged album right now... I thought that wud at least make me feel a bit better but it's not helping at all.

I guess the reason why i cant sleep is becoz i cant stop thinking abt her... Yes it was my decision to break up with her a week ago.. it was a necessary action for me to do. I just didnt want to lie to her anymore. I havent told any1 the reason I broke up with her... and it's killing me to just keep it all by myself. Yes, friends did ask me the reasons why i did that, but i wasn't ready to tell people why coz i just dont feel comfortable letting it out yet.

Yes i do miss her, but that doesnt mean i regret breaking up with her nor i want to get back together with her. There are just too many things that dont add up in our relationship back then. There's just too much of her characters that doesnt suit to my likings. She said that i didnt tell her what it was i dont like, but the thing is when she did it, i told her not to do it and after a while she did it over and over again.

I was planning on giving her another chance - a month of a chance - to proove herself that she's worth keeping, but Sunday and then Monday happened and it just decided for me. Wasnt a hard choice to make... the one month chance for prooving herself disappeared along with it.

The toughest part of breaking up with her is to make her let me go. It took a lot of nagging, threats and mean words to "settle" everything. Dont get me wrong abt the threatening part, it was her who threatens to do something bad to herself if i break up with her. I felt guilty tho coz the last thing i heard, she was laying in the hospital coz she was too weak, doesnt want to eat, dont wanna see anyone - depression. I got this info from her best friend.

I wonder what would happen if i hadnt broke up with her..? She'll definitely be fine... we might be fighting again... but at least she'd be fine... I might still have a girlfriend and yeah... she'd be fine...

Man!! I so really feel guilty for breaking up with her... I do still care abt her, but the feeling just isnt as strong as I hoped it wud be. I guess my feelings cudnt reach the level of "love" when it comes to her. I promised her that i wud try my best to be with her as long as i can, but everytime i think of her, i just feel angry at her and wants to avoid her. But now that we broke up, all i can feel is sad and worried, coz i dont want her to ruin her health just because of me.. or worried she might do something stupid just like in her threats.

Sometimes I wonder if i made the right decision for her sake or not. God help protect her from doing anything stupid and let her move on as soon as possible.

Fcuk! I'm ending this for tonite.

Some Jokes

And How Did You Die?
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It was getting a little crowded in Heaven, so God decided to change the admittance policy. The new law was that, in order to get into Heaven, you had to have a real bummer of a day when you died. The policy would go into effect at noon the next day.

The next day at 12:01am, the first person came to the gates of Heaven. The Angel at the gate, remembering the new policy, promptly said to the man, "Before I let you in, I need you to tell me how your day was going when you died."

"No problem," the man said. "I came home to my 25th floor apartment on my lunch hour and caught my wife half naked. She appeared to be having an affair, but her lover was nowhere in sight. I immediately began searching for him. My wife was yelling at me as I searched the entire apartment.

Just as I was about to give up, I happened to glance out onto the balcony and noticed that there was a man hanging off the edge by his fingertips! The nerve of that guy! Well, I ran out onto the balcony and stomped on his fingers until he fell to the ground. But wouldn't you know it, he landed in some trees and bushes that broke his fall and he didn't die. This ticked me off even more. In a rage, I went back inside to get the first thing Could get my hands on to throw at him. Oddly enough, the first thing I thought of was the refrigerator. I unplugged it, pushed it out onto the balcony, and tipped it over the side. It plummeted 25 stories and crushed him! The excitement of the moment was so great that I had a heart attack and died almost instantly."

The Angel sat back and thought a moment. Technically, the guy did have a bad day. It was a crime of passion. So, the Angel announced, "OK, sir. Welcome to the Kingdom of Heaven," and let him in.

A few seconds later the next guy came up. The Angel said, "Before I can let you in, I need to hear about what your day was like when you died." "No problem," said the second man. "But you're not going to believe this. I was on the balcony of my 26th floor apartment doing my daily exercises. I had been under a lot of pressure so I was really pushing hard to relieve my stress. I guess I got a little carried away, slipped, and accidentally fell over the side! Luckily, I was able to catch myself by the fingertips on the balcony below mine. But all of a sudden this crazy man comes running out of his apartment, starts cussing, and stomps on my fingers. Well, of course I fell. I hit some trees and bushes at the bottom which broke my fall so I didn't die right away. As I'm laying there face up on the ground, unable to move, and in excruciating pain, I see this guy push his REFRIGERATOR, of all things, off the balcony. It falls the 25 floors and lands on top of me, killing me instantly."

The Angel is quietly laughing to himself as the man finishes his story. "I could get used to this new policy," he thinks to himself. "Very well," the Angel announces. "Welcome to the Kingdom of Heaven," and he lets the man enter.

A few seconds later, a third man comes up to the gate. The angel says, "Please tell me how you died."

The third man says, "OK, picture this. I'm naked, hiding inside a refrigerator..."


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Interview for the Accountant position
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A Human Resources Manager was interviewing applicants for the position
of divisional manager. She devised a simple test to select the most
suitable person for the job. She asked each applicant the question :
"What is two and two?"

The first interviewee was a Journalist.
His answer was "twenty-two."

The second applicant was an Engineer.
He pulled out a calculator and showed the answer to be between 3.999 and
4.001.

The next person was a Solicitor.
He stated that in the case of Jenkins v. Commissioner of Stamp Duties,
two and two was proven to be four and a long-time precedent set.

The last applicant was an Accountant.

The Human Resources Manager asked him, "How much is two and two ?"

The Accountant got up from his chair, went over to the door, closed it,
then came back and sat down. He leaned across the desk and said in a
low voice : "How much do you want it to be ?"


He got the job.


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Virgin Daughters
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A mother had 3 virgin daughters. They were all getting married within a short time. Because Mom was a bit worried about how their sex life would get started, she made them all promise to send a postcard from the honeymoon with a few words on how marital sex felt. The first girl sent a card from Hawaii two days after the wedding. The card said nothing but "Nescafe". Mom was puzzled at first, but then went to the kitchen and got out the Nescafe jar. It said: "Good till the last drop." Mom blushed, but was pleased for her daughter.

The second girl sent the card from Vermont a week after the wedding, and the card read: "Benson & Hedges". Mom now knew to go straight to her husband`s cigarettes, and she read from the Benson & Hedges pack:"Extra Long. King Size". She was again slightly embarrassed but still happy for her daughter.

The third girl left for her honeymoon in the Caribbean. Mom waited for a week, nothing. Another week went by and still nothing. Then after a whole month, a card finally arrived. Written on it with shaky handwriting were the words "British Airways". Mom took out her latest Harper`s Bazaar magazine, flipped through the pages fearing the worst, and finally found the ad for British Airways. The ad said: "Three times a day, seven days a week, both ways." Mom fainted...


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6 Reasons Why You Should Think Before You Speak
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Have you ever spoken and wished that you could immediately take the words back...or that you could crawl into a hole? Here are the Testimonials of a few people who did....

FIRST TESTIMONY:
I walked into a hair salon with my husband and three kids in tow and asked loudly, how much do you charge for a shampoo and a blow job?" I turned around and walked back out and never went back my husband didn't say a word...he knew better.

SECOND TESTIMONY:
I was at the golf store comparing different kinds of golf balls. I was unhappy with the women's type I had been using. After browsing for several minutes, I was approached by one of the good-looking gentlemen who work at the store. He asked if he could help me. Without thinking, I looked at him and said, "I think I like playing with men's balls."
THIRD TESTIMONY:

My sister and I were at the mall and passed by a store that sold a variety of candy and nuts. As we were looking at the display case, the boy behind the counter asked if we needed any help. I replied, "No, I’m just looking at your nuts." My sister started to laugh hysterically. The boy grinned, and I turned beet-red and walked away. To this day, my sister has never let me forget.

FOURTH TESTIMONY:
While in line at the bank one afternoon, my toddler decided to release some pent-up energy and ran amok. I was finally able to grab hold of her after receiving looks of disgust and annoyance from other patrons told her that if she did not start behaving "right now" she would be punished. To my horror, she looked me in the eye and said in a voice just as threatening, "If you don't let me go right now, I will tell Grandma that I saw you kissing Daddy's pee-pee last night"
The silence was deafening after this enlightening exchange. Even the tellers stopped what they were doing. I mustered up the last of my dignity and walked out of the bank with my daughter in tow. The last thing I heard when the door closed behind me, were screams of laughter.

FIFTH TESTIMONY:
Have you ever asked your child a question too many times?
My three-year-old son had a lot of problems with potty training and I was on him constantly. One day we stopped at Taco Bell for a quick lunch in between errands. It was very busy, with a full dining room. While enjoying my taco, I smelled something funny, so of course I checked my seven-month-old daughter, and she was clean. Then realized that Danny had not asked to go potty in a while, so I asked him if he needed to go, and he said "No".
I kept thinking "Oh Lord, that child has had an accident, and I don't have any spare clothes with me." Then I said, "Danny, are you SURE you didn't have an accident?"
"No," he replied.
I just KNEW that he must have had an accident, because the smell was getting worse. Soooooo, I asked one more time, "Danny, did you have an accident?"
This time he jumped up, yanked down his pants, bent over and spread his cheeks and yelled "SEE MOM, IT'S JUST FARTS!!"
While 30 people nearly choked to death on their tacos laughing, he calmly pulled up his pants and sat down. An old couple made me feel better by thanking me for the best laugh they'd ever had.

LAST TESTIMONY:
This had most of the state of Michigan laughing for 2 days and a very embarrassed female news anchor who will, in the future, likely think before she speaks. What happens when you predict snow but don't get any? We had a female news anchor that, the day after it was supposed to have snowed and didn't, turned to the weatherman and asked:
"So Bob, where's that 8 inches you promised me last night?"
Not only did HE have to leave the set, but half the crew did too as they were laughing so hard now.


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enjoy!! ;)

Days in Temburong

Assalamualaikum and Happy Ramadhan to all!!!

Batah nda ku post sini ani buiii... apa ada ah??

Work in Temburong... i'm getting used to the "conditions" of working here in Temburong, going to the tambing every morning and to Temburong on the speedboat as early as 7.30am... then having to walk about 5 minutes to the office... Opening up the "shop" as we like to call it... and waiting for customers to come to subscribe or buy any top up cards or any other business that are related to our business. Then around 3pm closing up the shop, doing daily routine check at the back office... and going to the bank around 3.30pm and then going back to Bandar by 4.30 or 4.45pm. Back home and have headaches sometimes depending on which boat I was on and take a nap. That's almost my daily routine work these days... that is unless i have to go to the HQ to take care of something... the part about taking nap will have to wait...

oh yeah.. btw... we've settled the payment for the monthly boat trip from bandar to temburong and back with the Kooperasi... so now they will just charge it to the company instead of us having to pay ourself and claim it like we used to...

Anyway, bought myself a new phone motorola V975... and got my self a 3G prepaid line so i'm now using 2 numbers... 1 is my 3G line and the other is my easi line... i'm liking my 3G line coz it's my whole birthdate. mwahahahaa....

Shocking news - We no longer have a GM. Our GM resigned last Thursday... I guess he himself wasnt able to cope with the pressure placed on him by the CEO and the board of directors. It's a shame that he's gone but I'm really thankful to him for giving me an opportunity to work in the company and all the advices and ideas and helps that he has given me... I'm really appreciative of him. Thanks Bos!! by far he has been the best bos I've worked for.

Anyhow... am going back to work. Happy Fasting everybody!! ;D

Not Feeling Lucky Anymore... :(

I feel so lucky these week. I've gotten used to working in Temburong... I feel more cheerful... I'm starting to enjoy my work... maybe because I dont have to think about the fares that I need to use for work anymore... Hmmm... life's been preety interesting for me....

There's too much gossips going around at work about me and Ros... we're just friends... come on lah.. cant a guy and a girl be close and good friends..???

Anyway, I'm still missing Laura... hope I can drive her ASAP again... :D